For the Dim Beams

 By Anna Von Reitz

I can't be gagged if all I talk about is first-hand knowledge and my own thoughts about what I am seeing.  My opinions. All other news and conventional reports are being subjected to gag orders, so you are going to have to read between the lines.  

In my opinion and according to what I have witnessed in England, England is preparing and has been preparing for decades for a "cultural values war".  The battlefield is your mind, and your "cultural values" are being pitted against the cultural values espoused by others. 

For example, do you support the concept of nation-states or choose to adopt one world government?  

Do you support traditional one man-one woman family groups or do you support "community care" where a child doesn't belong to its parents?  

In my opinion, these and other questions crucial to the quality of life on this planet are being thrown in our laps right now via (again, my opinion) a bizarre market survey approach to social engineering.  

In my direct observation and first-hand knowledge, right or wrong, action has also been taken by members of the British Government, to push back against the effects of the Covid-19 injections, which lead to spontaneous abortions, premature births, greatly reduced fertility overall, and inability to produce mother's milk --- which confers natural herd immunity.  

So, fellas, I have taken the trouble to enumerate what I have directly observed of their breast-milk program and all you can think about is how uncomfortable it makes you, but that isn't my purpose or concern, is it? In my opinion, we, Americans, may need to know what the Brits have done and discovered to help save our own population. 

Boy, howdy --- take stock of where you are.  

You are, in my opinion, getting no honest news from the media about what is going on in the Middle East or anywhere else.  Also in my opinion, the Trump Administration has "declared war" without the benefit of a declaration from the correct Congress, or any Congress at all.  It has also declared "martial law" and is trying to resurrect "the Draft" --- that is, illegal conscription and press-ganging, that will guarantee the deaths of millions more people, all in line with the British Progressives depopulation agenda.  

And the Trump Administration is, additionally, in my opinion, in big trouble for violating international law and for violating the sovereignty of Iran and for trespassing on Iran like so many thugs in the hood. 

Your votes, according to my direct observation, are being cast for you by people acting in a capacity that was never discussed or agreed to by you.  

They are to my first-hand knowledge, voting to make you pay the tab for Trump's action in the Mideast, voting to conscript your sons and daughters, voting to depopulate this country, and voting to destroy any concept of marital, parental, or familial rights.

Do I have to explain what I am saying and why I am saying it?  

In my opinion, it's our relationships and our loyalty and our values that make us what we are --- disgusting pigs in suits, or men and women worth spitting on; the "cultural values war" is one that nobody living can afford to lose.  

In my opinion, I have been sending you data and insight that is really going to matter to you and to people you care about in the next six months. 

In my opinion, if you don't stand up for love and life instead of death and taxes, you are too stupid to live and have nobody to blame when you are asked, politely, to take a suicide pill. 

In my opinion, millions upon millions of the walking wounded are going to have to reinvent themselves, veterans and child abuse survivors among them.  These wounded souls have to do this with no map, no guides, no compass and no support unless they read my "Disney Princess" article very closely and undermine the embedded abusive social programming icons in their own heads.    

To my certain first-hand knowledge Granna is no Disney Princess; she's closer to Prince Charming, but not going with that, either. 

Right now, all those Twin Flame energies that are waking up are being manipulated so that millions upon millions of people are going to meet their Twins -----or, at least, those who are being chipped and broadcasting identical False Energy Signatures.  

This is similar to using decoys in a duck pond, in my opinion -- creating and amplifying an artificial version of the natural Twin Flame phenomenon, and noting also in my opinion, that people who don't know anything about the natural phenomenon are fundamentally at a gross and constructed disadvantage when they are being manipulated artificially. 

Say what, Leroy?  

In my opinion, this whole world is now a cultural values battleground....those manipulating your energetic field and who are also broadcasting false congruence signals can only be foiled by (1) awareness and (2) reliable knowledge and (3) plain old simple morality standing guard over the choices you make, because these people plan on and are using (already) electromagnetic signaling to turn your hormones off and on, are already able to manipulate natural "soul signaling" patterns between mated human beings, and can destroy marriages and relationships and families and whole communities at will using technology that tweaks the human EM field. 

In my opinion, I think this information exposing natural Twin Energy (and its purpose) is crucial to prevent a whole lot of potential abuse and destruction visited on innocent people who won't know what to think or do or how to handle it when some Edjit in a white coat flips a switch and turns them into an Earth energy conduit.  

To my direct knowledge, If the victims are startled and try to resist the Earth Star energy, they will simply explode down to hydrogen atoms, like a vastly underrated circuit breaker, instead of letting it flow on through and ground to the Earth.  That's why they need to relax and surrender to the incoming energy without losing themselves or their underpants in the process. 

In my opinion, it all counts toward the depopulation goal and Trump is going right along with it, with no sign of a conscience at all.  

These DARPA "scientists", in my opinion, have gone stark raving mad.  To my direct, first-hand knowledge, these scumbags are using technologies to tamper with nature and with biology in ways that threaten life on this planet, but they don't care, and aren't being regulated as long as they turn a profit. 

In my direct experience ----I went through all the struggles and experiences of Twin Energy when Nature was still in control of everything and in my opinion, what happens when these vicious madmen start playing with mated pair signaling and hormonal shift signaling impacting millions of people all over the planet --- well, it's going to be devastating to every social structure in existence. 

In my opinion, unless people are warned that yes, this natural phenomenon exists, they won't have any context for what they experience when the artificial variety gets turned on and all the artificially created Twins start congruence signaling. 

In my opinion, you have to know about snowflakes before snowballs make sense: you have to know what is being weaponized before the weapons make sense.   

In my opinion, exposure to this technology will leave devoted husbands and wives, devoted Christians, devoted Muslims, devoted Jews and Hindus--- anyone with any kind of sexual moral code --- will be out of their minds and horribly tempted to throw their religious and familial obligations under the bus. 

In my opinion, all major religions will be undermined by this technology and the likely result of it is chaos --- broken families, one parent families, huge escalation of divorces, destabilized institutions, especially religious institutions.... corruption of Nature, disruption of business networks, and for the victims, fears of mental illness. 

In my opinion, the artificial signal patterns used to dissolve individual consciousness barriers and allow telepathic communication and sensory grid access -- this loss of individuation on a large scale impacting millions of people worldwide -- will create both god-like awareness and intimacy, but it will be combined with psychological and emotional breakdowns because people will ask themselves: why am I betraying my own moral standards and best interests?  

In my direct experience, if there was no scientific understanding of the phenomenon as a natural phenomenon, and even less explanation of artificially induced gateway conductivity, I do believe and it is my opinion that people would question their sanity.  

In my opinion, an artificial version of this natural phenomenon could only be worse, less precise, and more dangerous.

In my opinion, a variation of this same technology is most likely responsible for inducing the child abuse behavior used by the blackmail cabal --- normal, sane adults have no sexual attraction to little children; this is induced behavior in my opinion and uses the same sort of EM stimulation and signal interference coupled with program icons.

In my opinion, the "scientists" responsible are testing the limits of moral inhibition, human bonding, and self-control, while seeking to completely undermine all ethical and religious boundaries standing in the way of their eugenics programs. 

In my opinion, this is why people need to be aware of Twin energy in its natural form, which suggests healthy uses and outcomes: the development of greater awareness, cosmic consciousness, and universal love --- not a magic wand to dissolve natural individuation barriers and reasoned personal inhibitions.  

So while this style of writing is tedious with a "my opinion" or "my first-hand knowledge" being inserted every other line, perhaps the confused can now follow along?  And my comments about not having the right to share any information but my own, make more sense? 

In my opinion, anyone mistaking my message as old lady sentimentality or romance is missing the operational importance of what I am telling you. You are, to my first-hand knowledge, being handed blueprints, and you will need them. 

Granna

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My Twin

 By Anna Von Reitz

He is a quiet man, someone I might greet on the street and nod politely, but never have any reason to think about deeply or be attracted to.  In his youth, he was handsome in a square-jawed, dark-haired way, but not gorgeous. Just "good looking" in a normal way.  

He's the kind of guy you meet every day in America. He might be your Maytag repairman, or an executive working for a company, or anybody doing any job that's honest. 

The only thing that might give you pause and might make you think for just one instant that he is part of me, is the look in his eyes, the penetrating stare that isn't judgmental, but is nonetheless sharp and searching at the same time.  

He's kind, he's wise, and he has a dry sense of humor.  Like me, he is a child abuse survivor.  If you had cause to know him better, and if he let you into his closely guarded world, you'd discover a man who is very strong, very brave, very compassionate and very creative. He is also honest to a fault, and utterly worthy of love, which he has never found. 

You share the same energy signature with your Twin and that shared energy space allows you to communicate telepathically.  If either one makes any effort at all, they can locate the other person, know how the other Twin feels without asking, read their thoughts, and drop in and use their eyes to literally see the world through their eyes.  

Most of us are too scared of this to explore very far, and then, we stop the merger of thought and senses, out of respect for the privacy of the other person.  Just because you can access their sensory grid, their memories and their feelings and their thoughts and their experiences, doesn't mean it's fair to do so.  

You sense somehow that this ability to transfer your consciousness into another person's body is sacred and that it exists for reasons that don't apply to your situation if you are unable to marry them.

Please realize that it is this same ability to share consciousness and sensory data that gives rise to the legendary sexual Sacred Union. 

No lies, no phony gasping.  Total conscious knowing. 

 

As you struggle with the "fair play" issues and with the realization that you can access someone else's mind and body to this extent, an overwhelming tenderness and protective impulse enters in.  

You can feel what your Twin feels.  All their empty, hurting, lonely places.  You can sense their needs without a word.  

You begin to love -- truly love -- your Twin, and it means something different and more than the word "love" ever commonly means. This love is as unconditional as the bond itself.  

Being known in this way can be very frightening.  Your whole soul is present, for better or worse. Your Twin isn't guessing.  They know. 

And this --potentially-- gives the relationship incredible depth, if you don't lose your nerve. 

Like the bond itself, some baselines simply exist. Every loss I have suffered has been his, and vice versa.  Every victory, too. When I love myself, I unavoidably love him. 

I haven't always been as brave, as competent, or as unselfish as my Twin.  He has often covered me, and loved me when I could offer nothing back to him, but a whispered, "Thank you."  He knows my humility and gratitude at this moment. 

Our natural energetic relationship simply is.  Like the moon and stars, we didn't create it.  We didn't choose it.  We have painfully learned to honor the truth and the mystery of it. 

Over the course of the next year many more people on this planet will be meeting their Twins, often for the first time ever.  It will be a shocking encounter that triggers emotions and experiences far beyond the normal.  

Some of those going through this will be married and deeply in love with their husbands or wives, with children involved, and families, homes, and jobs at stake.  The sheer force of the Twin energy can knock even the best and most grounded person in the world off course, especially if it comes with no warning, no conscious understanding of what it is. 

Instead of being destructive, Twin energy can become something profoundly positive and good, if we understand what it is, and prepare ourselves.  

We can heal parts of ourselves that would otherwise never see the light of day.  We can experience our own one-ness with divine creation through our Twin, simply by looking into their eyes, and realizing that we are seeing ourselves in them. 

Always remember that your Twin is your mirror.  If you want them to be happy, you must be happy.  If you want them to be free, you must free yourself.  If you want them to open up and be healed, you must do this for yourself.  Insomuch as there is any fault in them, it is a fault in you.  

Embrace your Twin with deep and reverent love.  Allow yourself to be awed by the mystery you are feeling and allow transformation to come. Know that this is holy, not any lust of mortal flesh; it is instead a yearning of the spirit to be renewed and made whole again. 

If you are suddenly overtaken by energy transfers beyond comprehension, realize that they won't kill you -- they will pass through you into the Earth and sea.  Surrender and let these great currents of energy flow through you. Don't be afraid.

The more you can anchor and integrate this energy into a sense of wholeness and peace, the more clearly you will remember your own divinity and mission.  

Granna

What About History and Government?

 By Anna Von Reitz

The purpose of any legitimate government is to protect the people and their assets. 

The greatest asset we have is life, and what makes life worth living is love.  

In the coming year, you will experience something inexplicable, something for which you are unprepared and have no context for understanding. 

Experience has shown that if you have no "thought matrix" to comprehend what is happening, it will come to you as raw sensory data, you will recognize the input, but you won't integrate it.  

It's important for you and for the planet that this time, when it happens, you recognize the energy and integrate it.  

Otherwise, you will notice that something changed, you will feel mysteriously good --- enlivened and free, as if you can breathe for the first time in a long while --- but your experience of the change will be short-lived and you may not even be able to consciously remember it a few days afterward. 

You need to remember.  You need to understand.  

The only way that I have to build the thought matrix you will need, and the only information I have the absolute right to share, is my own.  

So even if it feels like I am taking a sledge-hammer to your sensibilities and leading you into unknown territories for unknown reasons, be sure that in the end, all of the information I am giving you now relates back to our government.  

Begin with the fact that so far as the Earth is concerned, life is a love story.  

Love is the only reason that life exists.  So love matters and life matters, quite apart from the opinions of deluded people who have been taught to value money above love and life itself. 

Our life is our love story.  We glimpse the greater love story taking place all around us through the lens of our individual perception and experience.  Altogether, this is what gives us the mental framework needed to value anything --- anything --- at all. 

Our values are what determines our government.  So if you need and want to understand the bedrock of the American Government, you need to deal with the fundamental energies and conflicts that give rise to its unique values and expression.  

We, Americans, have to grapple with knowing and valuing ourselves, so that we can self-govern and defend our values overall. 

I can't give you anyone else's experience to help you on your way, so I give you mine, and fulfill the role of your grandmother --- passing on what I have learned and am learning while I still have life and love to share. 

What I experienced in England is shocking. I was shocked, too. 

What I experienced as a child is shocking -- because child abuse is shocking and irrational by its very nature.  

The information about Twin Flames is also shocking -- so the overall effect is like having someone light you up with a mental-emotional cattle prod.  

I know that.  I am sorry that there is no gentler way. 

If you don't understand the cultural values battlefield we are standing on now, you won't be able to defend your own.  

If you don't grasp the extent of the child abuse that has gone on, you won't be able to bind up the wounded and battered people that surround you.  

If you don't understand Twin Flame energy and its rightful part in Nature's design, the very thing meant to restore balance and peace will be misinterpreted and circumscribed by a morass of fear and unnecessary moral conflicts. 

We have passed the point wherein a Donald Trump or Emmanuel Macron had the chance to destroy life on Earth.  That may have been their mission, but they fumbled it.  Life won.  Love won.  So now we have to move on, too, and prepare for what comes next. 

I am preparing you with all that I can bring forward, dragging it into your awareness so that as shocking as it may be, you can build context, know what is happening, and remember it as each moment unfurls and each wave of energy arrives in your own life. 

My intention is that you will be enabled to live through what is coming without fear or too much confusion.  My will is that you and your loved ones will be able to navigate it all with grace and kindness.  

Fear is our enemy.  Fear is what overcomes us every time.  So to invoke our triumph we must find our courage, not just physical courage, but mental and emotional and spiritual courage -- to admit the truth, and still stand firm.  

The conscious attempt to preserve life and rebuild love relationships on solid ground that I witnessed in England is most shocking because it is conscious.  It is deliberate. 

They are moving to rebuild family values -- and social values -- from the ground up, one couple at a time. 

Will it work?  

The success or failure of one program isn't as important as the fact that they know what's wrong and they are grappling with it. 

The child abuse I suffered and that millions of other children suffer every year is shocking because it cripples and maims millions of us in silence. 

The abuse can't be stopped and healing can't start, until the silence is broken and we square off.  No nation on Earth can heal and flourish if its children are preyed upon and the wounds of its damaged adults are either ignored or misunderstood.

Finally, consider what happens when Twin Flame energy unexpectedly erupts with no context?  And know that it's erupting right now all over the planet ---? 

My Twin and I couldn't even look each other in the eye, because the energy was so intense and so unexpected and inexplicable. We just stood there, facing each other, barely able to speak. 

I managed to whisper, "I can't..... I can't!"  

He managed to say, "I know. You're married. It's sacred. But so is this."  

Then he did something so disingenuous, it broke me to tears.  He didn't stoop and kiss my lips.  He didn't take me in any practiced adult embrace.  He just pressed me to his breast like a child clutching a ragdoll. 

There was something about it that cracked my entire psyche open like an eggshell. I'd already overcome so much.  I'd already found peace with Jim. But this.... this I was not prepared for.  This I had no basis to understand. 

I am giving you the basis to understand it, if it happens to you or to someone you love. 

We are entering a season of the Earth when the Twin Flame energies rise and Twins gravitate toward each other --- and if they come together without understanding, havoc instead of healing ensues. 

It can look like plain-old unbridled adultery and lust, but it's not. The Twin is a sacred bond built into the very nature of mankind and encountering our Twin can happen to any of us, at any time.  

Among all the other things we need to be educated about, we all need this education about Twin Flame energy right now, because 2026 is the year of the Twin Flames.  

By the time my Twin showed up, my life had made me about as tough as a woman can ever possibly be.  Tough physically.  Tough mentally.  Tough spiritually.  Tough emotionally.  

I had endured decades of beatings and attacks and false accusations.  I had climbed the corporate ladder.  I had out-gunned Somali pirates. I had navigated my own life. I had faced loneliness and despair and poverty and every kind of challenge, but I was not prepared for my Twin to just quietly, almost silently, show up.

I was not prepared to hear his heartbeat and know it was my own heartbeat. I was not prepared to feel as if, within the circle of his arms, I completely disappeared. 

Nothing had ever prepared me for that, nothing ever suggested that such a thing was possible. 

So I am standing here telling you, yes, it's possible. It's real.  And it is fundamentally overwhelming and even terrifying, because when you are within the undimmed energy of your Twin, it feels like a million volt electrical current is flowing through you. 

You can barely speak, barely move, and remember-- when you first meet your Twin, you don't know this other person at all. 

You are lucky if you know their name.  

Also remember that there are likely to be other differences, too, not just a difference of sex.  If you are a Christian, you may find yourself paired with a Muslim or Jew or Hindu.   If you are black, your Twin may be white.  If you are Asian, your Twin may be Hispanic.  If you are a classically handsome man, your Twin may be a hopelessly mousy woman nobody would look at twice.  

It's like God has fun mixing disparate types of people together when 

the Twin energy is created, as if the message of "oneness" has to be beaten into our brains by presenting us with Twins who are objectively unlike us --- except that they carry our own exact energy signature.  

They are part of us and they mirror us in every way.  If we cherish them, we cherish ourselves.  If we react in fear (the most common response) we fear ourselves. 

The very concept of self-governance is rooted in the energy of the Twin Flame.  You have to learn the strange dialectic presented by the Twin, before your own deepest struggle with self-governance begins. 

And here is the real kicker -- self-governance is the foundation of the American Government. 

Granna

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Anchor Points

 By Anna Von Reitz

We are about to witness an extraordinary phenomenon, so listen up and take this seriously, because there are very material and important things at stake. 

The Ancients described in religious and occult texts how we all come into this world, and how one being is split into male and female expressions of the same self.  They call this the "twin flame" of the "One", and over centuries the peculiar details of this relationship have been recorded and passed down. 

The most extraordinary sign that you are encountering the "other side" of yourself, are surges of an electrical - alchemical energy that takes your breath away. It's so strong, so unexpected, it takes your breath away and leaves you startled, sometimes even gasping. 

You are just dawdling along, maybe at the supermarket or walking home from church and ---- and, there you are, going WTH was that? A sudden overwhelming surge of energy -- not just sexual chemistry,  seems to rise up from the floor or the street or wherever you are, and gobsmacks your whole body like a tsunami. 

Maybe you will walk into your kitchen one day, as I did, and a young man you hardly know will look over his shoulder and you will know with an inner knowledge that he is your twin. Or she is your twin. 

And it will make no logical sense at all.  

This person is usually totally different from you in some major respects beyond being of a different sex.  If you are blond, they are dark.  If you are short, they are relatively tall.  If you are older, they are younger. If you are beautiful, they are likely to be homely.  I am not saying this specifically --- just giving examples of how you may additionally differ.  

It's usually not only a matter of being a different sex, but what does not differ, is the immense strength of the energy involved. It totally overwhelms any concept you might have had prior to this. 

If this has happened to you, if you have met your Twin in this life, you know exactly what I am talking about. 

This gravitational attraction is orders of magnitude stronger, immediate, unreasoning, automatic --- like opposite poles of a magnet flipping and clamping together.   

When this happened to me, thirty years ago, I was happily married and had no compass, no idea what was going on at all. So, I went to my husband, Jim, and thank God, he was not as clueless as I was, nor was he angry or upset.  

He smiled and gently embraced me and said, "You've just encountered the other side of yourself."  He went on to explain the whole nature and dynamic of the relationship, calm and kind as ever. 

Jim was my Soulmate, but the other man was my Twin Flame -- that missing, separated Divine Masculine part of my Self.  

And I had to deal with the prerogatives and truths of both at the same time, with a young Son hanging in the balance. 

Both loves are valid.  Both loves are true.  That is what is so horrifically difficult when your Twin is married to someone else, or you are married to someone else. 

And you all still have to muddle through, somehow.  

I was helped in that my Twin was my Twin.  I was a good woman with good values and an honest heart.  He was a good man with good values and an honest heart.  I could not turn away from my commitment to Jim and our young Son.  My Twin understood that. 

Other Twin relationships are not so brave and willing to sacrifice themselves.  And no matter what, it's not easy.  Encountering your Twin is terrifying in a way.  

The potential emotional stakes are unimaginably high.  

People who have problems with self-confidence, those who have been damaged by rejection and betrayal, those who have lost in love and are familiar with that suffering, instinctively shy away.  

Even though they unavoidably love you to the depths of their soul, even though their very DNA, their cellular code, is screaming your name --- fear of rejection, fear of loss, fear of fear itself --- typically drives one Twin to flee.  

This person is known as The Runner.  They run, even when there is no other person involved -- and it's even worse, when, as in my case, you are already married.  

The Twin relationship, like the Soulmate relationship, is a soul-level bond.  You can accept it, you can reject it, you can ignore it (or try to), you can fight it, you can flee it, you can get down on your knees and ask God to end it --- and it remains.  It is divine and it is destined that someday, you will rejoin.  

The two of you will become one again.  

The Sacred Union that Twin Flames can achieve is utterly legendary, and many people assume that it is some kind of sexual alchemy that transforms the normal sex act into something extraordinary, but no,  sex between Twins totally redefines sex. It's not even in the same reality.  

That said, the Sacred Union doesn't require sexual union --- it requires three things: 

(1) The two people must be physically and energetically whole.  A cracked "bell" cannot hold the frequency of wholeness, so, both must be healthy and whole for the miracle to happen. 

(2) They have to understand that the immense energy passing through them and grounding in the Earth is not going to kill them; they have to relax and surrender to it --letting it pass through them freely. 

(3) They have to be in close proximity physically, but not necessarily conjoined. Close enough so that their energetic auras overlap.  You can experience the Sacred Union by just holding hands or hugging each other.  

This is an electromagnetic phenomenon, so it is affected by the environment.  

One of the most lasting images I have of it, is both of us being drenched by a rainstorm and standing with my Twin in the surf of the sea, holding onto each other for dear life, syncing our breath to each other, while the energy flowed through us and out from us, radiating deep into the Earth and traveling in an instant through the seawater to the farthest reaches of the planet.    

It was a planetary shift.  Our remembrance of being One triggered the same remembrance in all the other Twins and even in the animals and plants and rocks.  We all suddenly remembered that we are One, inextricably part of each other and the cosmos. 

This had to be experienced by one couple in order for it to be transferred to all the others, like a tuning fork being struck.  

Once we initiated this cascade of Oneness Energy the entire planet was instantly transformed -- in the twinkling of an eye.  

The same deep knowing without words, something beyond words, something intuitive and true, that announces the presence of your Twin, announces the holiness and the unchangeable nature of the bond. 

Whether or not you are ever so lucky and blessed to understand the nature of the relationship and to be husband and wife ---  you are still blessed to know who your Twin is, and you can still do your part to heal this planet and everyone on it.  Each Twin pair can make the effort to reconnect in whatever way is appropriate for them, and anchor the energy of Oneness.  

My Twin, as you might expect, has been horribly damaged and battered for my sake.  He took all the punishment of the Dark Forces and loyally protected me and my young Son and Jim. He has stood through it all by himself all these years, and you might think that there is no chance for us to be strong enough to anchor the Earth's energy again --- with me pushing seventy and him in the shape he is in. 

Whether or not we can do it, the demand is upon us that we try, and the truth, like the result, is in the hands of the Divine that made us---and which renews us.   It may take a miracle to make a miracle, but that's how miracles are. 

If you know who your Twin is, no matter what age you are, search your condition and strength.  We need all the Twins to stand united in whatever phase of life you are in, to once more act as conduits of the Earth Star  --- which will make every element of the planet aware of the Oneness that we share and are. 

If you want peace, if you want plenty, then turn your attention and focus toward Oneness and believe in love that overcomes. 

Granna

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The Real Meaning of the Disney Princess

 By Anna Von Reitz

The thing about child abuse is that children, being children, don't know that they are being abused --- it doesn't have a name at the time, so they just suffer it in confusion. 

The Abuser increases this confusion by endlessly repeating how much they "love" their victim while ripping open their little rectums and vaginas, or, as in my own case, beating them senseless on a daily basis and accused of all sorts of outlandish things you never did as an excuse for the punishment.  

"Love" becomes synonymous with fear, pain, and betrayal at a primal level.  

None of it makes sense, and this establishes a kind of semi-permanent cognitive dissonance. 

You learn early to pay no attention whatever to what people say, and only take stock of what they do.  You also learn to be preternaturally alert, always on your guard, "looking around the corner", ready to fight or to fly, observing every nuance and gesture and tone of voice. 

And then, the secrecy element always appears.  We have to keep this secret, just between us.  Nobody else can ever know, and if they do, well, things will go very much the worse for the victim, or their Mother, or their little sister.... 

So beyond the fear and confusion of the actual abuse, fear of derivative consequences enters in.  You are repeatedly told that nobody can ever know and you must never show any wounds to anyone.  You just have to suffer alone, and if you don't, even worse things will happen to you or to someone you dearly love. 

You suck it up and soldier on. 

In your struggle to make sense of the abuse, you deduce that you are sacrificing yourself to save your Grandmother or Mom or a sibling.  This self-sacrifice becomes habitual.  

I remember being nine or ten years old and accused of performing fellatio on a elderly and thoroughly innocent old man who was a neighbor of ours.  My Mother beat me and screamed at me and left dozens of welts on my back from willow switches.  Meanwhile, I had no idea what "fellatio" was.  No idea of what a real penis even looked like at that point in my life.  The beating went on from about four in the afternoon until Walter Kronkite broke in with the Evening News. 

I crawled under my bed and laid still, except for the involuntary trembling and wincing of my bruised and ravaged skin.  My dog came to comfort me.  I fell asleep there and in the morning, I got up, washed my face, put on new school clothes and ran for the school bus without breakfast or seeing anyone else. 

I was on my own, and grateful for it, even if I was starved. 

Imagine how it feels to have nowhere to go, except to return to that same house, with the same irrational, unpredictable woman waiting for you?  Imagine never knowing what to expect?  Kisses and crumpets or wild, flailing, screaming terror? 

She was careful never to do it when my Father might walk in.  She was careful to leave no marks where he might see them.  On some level, it was rational, even planned. 

By age eleven, thankfully, I had thought it all over and decided that my Mother was crazy.  That preserved my own sanity for another five years.  At age sixteen, she came at me one final time, and I hauled off and dropped her unconscious on the kitchen floor. 

At the time, I thought I'd killed her and nearly broke down in hysteria -- but not quite. I was too strong by then to give into any fleeting unexamined emotion.  Instead, I checked her pulse and waited for her to wake up, which she did, rubbing her neck and jaw.  

And here is the really, really, really queer thing: from then on, and for the rest of her life, (1) she never touched me again; and (2) so far as she was concerned, we had always been best friends and enjoyed the most trusting and loving relationship as Mother and Daughter. 

Anyone hearing her talk or observing her behavior around me would ever suspect anything but the most cordial relationship.  

Was it some bizarre Rite of Passage?  Fear that I would kill her if there was a next time?  Some kind of delusional denial?  I bought a lock for my bedroom door and still never relaxed around her.  

Years later my older Sister admitted that she had had the same experience growing up, and also confided that our Mother had been abused in the same way by our Grandmother.  It was multi-generational trauma.  

Our Mother did this to us, because it had been done to her. She had no other model of how to interact with her own children, and so.... two more lives, my Sister's and mine, were scarred by the same violence and craziness. 

My Sister mourned the fact that she "never had a Mother" her entire life and never really came to terms with it.  I, the Born Stoic, chalked it up to my original determination, that she was crazy, and that was all there was to it. 

No other explanations needed. 

I regretted that I could never actually love my Mother, but, as time had proven, I didn't need her to exist. She didn't need me to exist. 

I let her have her fantasy about our closeness and the happy-happy relationship that never existed.  

About a year before her death at 96, I visited her in her nursing home and all the nurses and doctors were secure in believing that I was her beloved and successful daughter and there had never been anything but fresh air and sunshine between us.  But when a nurse's aide dropped a metal tray on the floor, I still jumped as if I'd been stabbed. 

That, more than anything else, told the truth of it -- though nobody there caught the drift. 

I didn't go back for her funeral.  That fell on my older sister, Emma, by agreement, because I had to do the Last Rites duties for our Father, alone, when I was only twenty-five, and pay for it, too.  

Years later, a man who knows me well and has known me for twenty years, was reminiscing about how we met and his first impressions of me.  To my surprise, he said I was scary -- because "I was so complete and independent.  So self-sufficient, all by yourself." 

I explained that fear of not being good enough drives one to excel, and fear of vulnerability drives one to stand by oneself, whether or not that's what you really want or need. 

The Disney Princess in her castle on the hill, sleeping in an eternal silence, waiting for the kiss of true love to awaken her, or simply waiting all by herself, day after day, year after year, for Prince Charming to arrive, is an archetype of child abuse. 

While we all root for her and Prince Charming,  the truth is that she has to awaken herself, has to learn to love and know herself all by her own little lonesome.  Only then, when she has learned to be comfortable with herself, when she has observed her own self-respect, and credited her own strength, can self-love give her the invincible strength and knowledge of all that she has overcome. 

Only then, by her own determination, is she free to love and be, and not care what anyone else may think.  Only then is her child-self vindicated and lasting peace established.  

I decided to be a good woman and to never abuse my own child, and so it was that I broke the multi-generational curse.  I shielded all the children that chanced to be around me.  I watched for the signs of child abuse. 

I sat across the dinner table, looking at the man I have known and who has been my friend for twenty years, and I said, "Isn't it funny that you can know someone for twenty years and never know such a fundamental thing about them, that they are a survivor of child abuse?" 

He agreed, and he looked quickly away, as if he should have known, but that isn't fair either.  He finally nodded and said, "I guess we just never turned over that rock." 

Turn over the rocks. 

Not in a selfish "I was horribly abused! Look at me!" attention-getting way, not to provoke or absorb pity, but simply to be honest and reveal the extent of the trauma our entire culture has suffered --- so maybe we can begin to organize ourselves and deal with it.   

We are a-wash in people who have been abused, who are trying to recover from severe traumas, who are half-alive because of what they have endured, people who are still injured, still feeling confused, still bearing the burdens of secrets and shadows and silence. 

I smiled and my companion didn't have any idea why I was smiling. I was thinking, "Well, so here I am, the Disney Princess, and I am my own Prince Charming." 

Granna

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