By Anna Von Reitz
We are living beings. We grow by organic processes--- intricate networks of physical and chemical processes that lead us through our life cycles with grace and precision. We start with a single spark of creation and each one of us then "becomes" who we are and will be, bit by bit, and day by day.
It's the same organic process when it comes to our emotional world, too. Even things that appear to happen suddenly, like love at first sight, have actually been prepared for, for years. We love what we love and who we love, because of who we are and where we are in the process of our own becoming.
It was my lot to become acquainted with grief at an early age, and to observe myself moving slowly through that process, too, marking the stages of the wound-healing with each milestone.
There's always the confusion, the denial, the this-can't-be-happening response.
Then the anger. Then the bargaining and wheedling with fate. Then the depression, and, finally, the acceptance.
It takes me anywhere between a year and eighteen months to overcome a major loss. I know that. I have had losses aplenty in my life to practice on. Each new one is unique, of course, but the process remains steady and inexorable as the seasons.
And each time I lose someone or something I care about deeply, the more I reflect on the fact that we are all part of something mysterious and so much greater, a Unity that belies all concepts of separation, differences, and time.
There was someone missing from our fireside this Christmas, a four-footed someone, a certain old yellow dog who wasn't at my heels or watching me every moment as I prepared Christmas dinner, a certain velvet-eared and velvet-eyed dog with his tail thumping happily in response to every voice and offer of pets.
I suppose the worst moment was after dinner, when our single remaining dog was waiting for his dinner, and he looked around over his shoulder rather confused to be the Only Dog after a lifetime of being with pack mates, clearly wondering where all the others were?
Gone to other firesides and great forests and bubbling streams we can only imagine for them, vanished into the world of pure energy.
There are times when I feel my dog with me so strongly that I half-expect to feel his muzzle gently resting on my toe, making sure that I don't go anywhere without him knowing about it. Fair weather or foul. In those moments I am comforted and reassured.
It's not all for nothing, a pointless ending in a grave, so much ashes scattered to the wind. There is more, much more than that.
There is still the love that binds us, just the same. There is still the mysterious vast Unity that holds us safe in its grasp. There is still the divine compassion that created us and gave us all our lessons and our loves.
When I think about it, I know that it was time for him to go, and it was just our great love for each other that was holding him here in his tired, failing body. Still, I miss my dog with heart-breaking constancy.
There is a hole in every moment of my day: when I wake up, there is no joyous nuzzle, when I go out, no warm head pressed against my knee begging to go along, and when I come home, no wagging tail, no laughing eyes to greet me.
The Empty Space is seldom spoken of, though we all know it's there.
Someday, there will be another dog to train and to love, to take on long walks, to play ball with, to confide in, to nap with. I know. Someday, when the hurt has worn away and the seasons have passed, and my heart is like a pleasant field, well-rested and fallow, there will be another dog --- a stray will come, a rescue call will come, or a puppy will come nuzzling into my life, as puppies do.
A new friendship will begin between dog and man, or, in this case, "dog and Mum". And that process, too, is just as mysterious and God-given as all the rest of it. Until then, the grieving takes its course, and I am tasting each drop of grief, one at a time, until the cup of sorrow is drained and the process has done its work.
For all of those who have been grieving this Christmas and putting a brave face on it, for all those who feel sorrow in their lives, know that you are not alone. We all have our causes and our reasons, our own wounds to bind, but you are not alone.
Many of you who read my articles are going through the grieving process over our country and its government. I know, because I went through that grief, too.
There's the denial -- "it can't happen here!" -- the anger -- "who is responsible for this?" --- the bargaining -- "how do we shuffle this off?--- the depression -- "there's no way to fix this...." and finally, the acceptance: "well, this is the way it is, and we have to deal with it and go forward."
Lucky for you, others have borne the same grief, struggled through the same process, and come out the other side of it. They are now leading the effort to restore our government as it was meant to be, and as it can be, with the inspiration and insight we all bring forward.
Our nation has not suffered fraud and corruption in vain. We have learned from the experience and witnessed the process. And we won't be fooled again.
Please go to: www.TheAmericanStatesAssembly.
net, and as we face a new year, join me in putting your own grief to work, making it count for a better, kinder, and far more honest world.
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Touching. Thanks for the share, Anna. And best wishes for getting on through the grief - indicative of the value of the experience in your life - to the other side. As your life goes on, to other pastures in the end.ReplyDelete
I've lost everything. Business, family, friends and sometimes a will to push forward. I don't have anything else to lose but I'm being evicted so I have more sorrow and stress to look forward too.ReplyDelete
No one recognizes what we have done but we are ridiculed and shunned by all.
Anna, my condolences for your loss of your beloved canine friend, it hurts just as much when we lose our friends and family members!!!ReplyDelete
It's taking me a lifetime for me to accept and get over the unbearable pain of losing my parents at birth (abandoned on the street by my biological parents when I was born and found by the police and sent to a state orphanage until adopted by missionaries at six years old from another country, spoke no language until seven)!!! I consciously chose to use my severe emotional pain to channel my raw emotions into assisting humanity to a better world that I was born into (I came, I saw, I changed what I saw)!!! Everything I do is in honor and memory of my biological parents (even though I have never met them or know what their faces look like) and our Father (Yahweh) in Paradise/Heaven!!! Now, I am about to launch my 100+ billion dollar online retail company in a few months, assist The Assembly in their objectives and honor our Father (Yahweh) in Heaven by establishing his Paradise/Heaven on Earth!!! Not bad for an orphan who should have died at birth but refused to die in solitary (doctors told my adopted parents that they were shocked that I survived the gulag for children when most children would not have survived my condition and circumstances)!!! I don't feel sorry for myself and I don't expect anyone else to feel sorry for me because I now there are other children and adults who have it much worse than I do (I cried when I had no shoes until I saw a man with no feet)!!! Amen, so be it said our Father (Yahweh) in Heaven!!!
Sent a message, didn't show up. So I'll try again. Send your email and phone number to Paul, if your comfortable with that. I'll contact you and go from there.
Make it happen Bless your heart without Yahuah=Yahweh=Yasuah in my life the truth would not be in me. I am not one of his flock that was lost for lack of knowledge and Divine intervention has led me to prosper spiritually. I am a state citizen with the Minnesota Assembly and i try to live by the first 5 books of the bible and i do not over look the books that were left out like = my opinion Enoch was a divine message Jasher Jubilees Eden Josephus and more were left out. I research for the Assembly and believe in Divine intervention.Bless your heart Make it happen= KUDOS from Charles Robert Walker Sealed by thy seal of Enoch Blessed Be He Holy Holy HolyReplyDelete
Charles Robert Walker- Thanks for your kind words my brother, really appreciate it a lot!!! Amen, so be it said our Father (Yahweh) in Heaven!!!Delete
Lost my buddy Caine this past July.... 17 faithful years.... i miss him enormously... he was my favorite dog... He was teriffic with all the Grandchildren and they all miss him as well... my 'ol friendReplyDelete
Merry, Blessed Christmas and peace to all. Happy and joyous New Year to all as well....
Is the anna law firm working with DJT lawyers; are annas attorney firm winning any cases
of course this will never be answered
I am ready to do whatever it takes to get this country back to the people. Not the ones that destroy and corrupt it.ReplyDelete
Dear Anna, what makes you think that what amounts to a "handful" of those who are awake can stand against the LEGIONS of evil that infest this planet and bend them to our will? Soon there will be a reckoning from the planet and the Universe and the one True God that will wipe the earth clean, as has happened time and again thru the eons.all we can hope for is that this time the cockroaches and rats are snuffed out in their hidey holes and only true and good people survive to begin the story of mankind again...ReplyDelete
In identifying those targeted for wrath, I see three parties at work here, so I have a question.Delete
The rats and cockroaches are among us and known by their evil works are self-condemned.
This leaves two groups in question; those at work building an ark of safety for the people, and a number of observers on-looking, some even mocking or discouraging the workers. My question is, of these two latter groups, which one do you see as good?
Blessed are those the Master finds so doing when He returns.Delete
Bunny Wrangler- Two words: Blind Faith!!! Amen, so be it said our Father (Yahweh) in Paradise/Heaven!!!Delete
P.S- Paul Raymond Whipple- I will answer your question very soon (keep in tuned), very tired at this moment from exhaustion (labor)!!! Amen, so be it said our Father (Yahweh) in Paradise/Heaven!!!